Galatians 2:20 “I have been crucified with Christ, nevertheless I live, yet not I but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave Himself for me”
If you are a genuine Christian then your life is no longer your own, but is Christs. Your will is now His will, your desires are now His desires, the things He loves you love and the things He hates you hate. For you were bought at a price, your life was redeemed by the precious blood of Christ. If you still live for your own agenda then you do not belong to Christ.